Tonight, I am coming just short of a nervous wreck.
Ever since Bryan was born, he has had a green goopy eye. This is the result of a plugged tear duct. Tomorrow morning, we are taking him to get it cleared.
We have been very fortunate in that this is Bryan's only health issue. It hasn't made him extra cranky like other problems would have. It may bother him a bit and he constantly rubs it, but it hasn't really affected our day to day lives other than constantly being asked about his "eye infection" and having to clean it all the time.
But, we don't want him to have to deal with it forever.
I know that other moms go through worse. Some have babies with major health issues. Babies that are born premature. Babies who can't hear. Babies who need actual surgery instead of just a minor procedure that is for the most part, a poke in the corner of the eye.
That doesn't mean I don't have the right to worry just as much. What if they mess up and hurt his eye or make him blind? What if something goes wrong with the anesthesia and he wakes up scared without me, in the middle of the procedure, or not at all?
He is my baby, and my heart will always hurt when he is in a situation that I cannot control. It is the price we pay when we become mothers. A price I would pay a million times over for this much love and joy.
I realize I went off on a tangent. Basically, Minor procedure, but I'm still freaking out. Going to be a long night.
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